Just say it

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me
She was my so called " best friend
I stared at her long , silky hair, and wished she was mine
But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it
. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed
. the day before and handed them to her
She said " thanks " and gave me a kiss on the cheek
I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be
. just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why



11th grade

The phone rang . On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling
on and on about how her love had broke her heart
She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did
As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes
wishing she was mine

. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips
she decided to go to sleep
She looked at me, said " thanks " and gave me a kiss on the cheek
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why





Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker
My date is sick" she said : he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date
and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates
we would go together just as " best friends " . So we did
Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step
I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes
I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it
Then she said "I had the best time, thanks! " and gave me a kiss on the cheek
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends
. I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why




Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month
Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect
body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma
I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it
Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried
as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder
: and said
"you're my best friend, thanks and gave me a kiss on the cheek
I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends
I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why





A Few Years Later

. Now I sit in the pews of the church . That girl is getting married now
. I watched her say " I do " and drive off to her new life, married to another man
I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it
"But before she drove away, she came to me and said " you came
. She said " thanks " and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her
I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but
. I'm just too shy, and I don't know why




Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to
be my best friend
At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years
This is what it read : I stare at him wishing he was mine
.but he doesn't notice me like that,and I know it
I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want
to be just friends, I love him but I'm just
too shy,and I don't know why
. I wish he would tell me he loved me

..I wish I did too
.` I thought to my self, and I ' cried